Awake.

I think it's because it's late. Not why I'm awake but why I'm feeling like I do.

I'm scared and lonely.

I didn't write a letter today. I was too busy.

It's 2 AM.

Today was a good day. I visited two of my teachers from elementary school. I got seasons 3 and 4 of House, Au Revoir Simone's and Regina Spektor's latest albums. I saw old friends and got to hold a baby. I played a lot of Nertz and Speed.

I get depressed late at night. I leave tomorrow. I kinda just want someone to give me a hug. I don't miss him right now. Although I feel somewhat empty. Perhaps it's my lack of sleep. I didn't feel empty today when I saw Mrs. Sunseri at her nursing home and talked and smiled and cried with her. I didn't feel empty when she hugged me. I have no idea why I want to study gerontology. But I felt reassured that it was right as I left Village on the Park. I didn't feel empty then.

It got me thinking. I love Brenden. I expended a lot of time and energy in showing that love to him. I love people. Maybe now I'm supposed to use my time and energy in showing that love towards others. Do I even have enough time to help like I want to? Am I even going to do it?

I want to be there for people. No one should be alone. No one should ever be alone.