I cannot handle this.

I have nowhere to cry anymore.

I have a constant headache. It's so hard to sleep. I don't want to eat. I cannot focus on anything.

Holy crap. I want some Xanax. Maybe I should get back on antidepressants. This is just like my first semester at BYU except it's worse. I can't do that again. I can't go through that again.

And I'm crying for things that I tell others to do without crying.